M56

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March 04 2010

Today I am down as low as you can go. The worse thing is that I have caused it myself. Unintentionally....but what does that matter ? I want to go dig a hole and bury myself in it. I've hurt someone who meant the world to me. A friendship that went beyond what I can put into words. Some wordsmith I thought myself to be. Ha ! I hope I can repair it. Gain that persons trust again....help them to believe in me again. Prove that I was and am sincere. Self pity is pathetic, but that's how I feel right now. I'm going to take some time out....think about the things that really matter....try to work out why I make people unhappy when I wan't nothing for them but freedom. release....happiness. Of my many character flaws, it is doubtless, my greatest. Too honest. Too open. It's time perhaps to close up shop. Be normal. Be reserved. Be cautious. Lie. After all, what they don't know can't hurt someone, right ? It's only when you open up that you start cutting people down... But then, how can you be someone you aren't ? One for me to ponder. It was my fault. My ego. My desire to be something I am not. Best wishes everyone....and try to be nice. SadDog.

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RHP User

16 years ago

this too shall pass ... everything in life passes in time.Meanwhile, you're off to a great start with your self reflection and honesty. And a heartfelt apology to your friend, asking them what you can do to make it up to them, will go a long way I'm sure.Best of luck BadDog.fussy xxx

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RHP User

16 years ago

here - have a Schmacko and wag that tail again. Dunno - it works on huskies, figure it might work on labs too

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RHP User

16 years ago

Ah ya big puppy dog, come over here and we'll slobber all over you till you feel better again. We all stuff up and have to accept it, do the best to limit the damage to others, learn from it and push on forward.

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RHP User

16 years ago

No Dog,Don't lie and close yourself off, cos that'sthe certain path to more heatache and despair. I hope you manage to get your shit in one sock, not only cos I have a big girly crush on you from the other side of the country, but just because sadness... I know it's part of life, but it sucks.*hugs*

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RHP User

16 years ago

Indeed Sir, it happens to all of us at some time or another. All one can do is go quietly and take time for reflection and self examination, although it sounds as though you are already beginning that process. I work for a wise man who's catch phrase is "We're all imperfect people in an imperfect world trying to do the best we can" Think on this for a time, we would all like to think we're perfect, but we're not. All we can do is our best, and if we stuff up, then we apologise sincerely if necessary, and make a mental note to do our best not to repeat our mistake.Take careViking

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amiira

16 years ago

we love you for who you are. we care about you and want to be friends with you precisely because you are you.

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RHP User

16 years ago

Mate. Easy fix... Don't look bak! Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is always from the noblest motives. Hugs Stalky

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RHP User

16 years ago

then no matter what was said...no matter what the hurt....it will all work out in the end.We all say things that we probably could have worded better...but as long as the intention was pure...and both of you are reasonable and understanding...then in time....things will get better.JMO...BJxxx

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RHP User

16 years ago

Things can always be mended man..

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RHP User

16 years ago

.... but I'm damn sure I've never disagreed with Miss BJ's opinion, ever. "If the friendship is true, then in time, things will get better" and I agree with Taipan, too.... "things can always be mended"...

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RHP User

16 years ago

As I look at your pic...there is no feeling of distaste....so I would think that I pretty much agree with your opinions too...lol!I agree with everyone's RIGHT to have an opinion...but I also think that unless it is voiced in a MATURE and REASONABLE manner...then more often than not...I won't bother reading it.I am by nature, an empath.I see things from all sides...and while I don't always agree with someone...I always try to understand their point of view...and will defend their right to have it.Unless they are a complete twat....then I just ignore them.JMO..BJxxx

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